[The reply's immediate; someone's clearly sitting on his phone, doomscrolling through the local news sites.]
I'm safe. I haven't left my apartment, to be quite honest.
I saw that you were safe too, otherwise I would have checked in with you much earlier. I'm sorry; I hope that you don't think that I wasn't worried for you, but I didn't want to add to your stress. Is Nito-san alright? Do you two need anything?
[It takes a minute for him to reply, but only because he's so relieved it overwhelmed him.]
Oh, I'm so glad.
Ah, you must have seen the headcount post. No, please do not worry, the thought never once crossed my mind. There has been a great many terrible things to happen today, and it's put everyone out of sorts...
Nito-san is ...
Nito-san will be fine, I am looking after him. What about you? Can I do anything to help you, Rui-san?
Something's happened to Nito-san...I know I haven't met him yet, but he's your friend, and therefore I care about him too. If I can't be of assistance, at least I'll hope for his swift recovery under your attentive care.
But really, don't worry about me. I don't really think I'll be leaving for a while, unless I'm needed. There's nothing I can do to be of use, so I may as well stay out of everyone else's road until I'm actually capable.
Nito-san's place of employment was in the crossfire of an attack. He made it out, but ...let's just say I've confined him to bed rest whether he agrees or not.
[Nazuna hasn't fought him as much as he was prepared for, at least. He's the sort who likes to overwork himself.]
Rui-san...
Do not feel guilty about something like that. I know it's ...something of a great hypocrisy to hear words like that from me, but, no one could have truly anticipated what happened, least of all us, who've only been here for a very short time.
I'm scared out of my mind, but knowing you've decided to stay safe, it brings me a lot of relief. The people here who have seniority over us, let them be the ones to figure this out. Meddling with our lack of knowledge will only bring trouble.
The flower shop? I saw it in the news. He's in good hands now, at least.
[It takes him a minute to stop staring at his phone, but at least Mayoi's gotten him to smile, even wryly.]
No, you're quite right. That's exactly what I'd say to someone else, if they were panicking like I am currently. This isn't yet our fight, and we're more of service doing what we can to help out at home base, aren't we? I've just never been in a situation quite like this; choosing to take risks where I know most of the outcomes is quite different to this.
If things become unsafe where you are, you're both welcome to stay with me. I think I'd welcome the company.
Yes. He was not terribly injured, thankfully. He was very lucky.
That’s what I think, too. There’s far too much we don’t know yet to be acting recklessly. We were thrust into the middle of something far bigger than us. This may be the cowardly approach but, I’m certain there will be something for us to do once the dust clears and we better understand the ground our feet are on.
Unfortunately, I’m familiar with being pushed to the edge of a cliff blindfolded and being told to walk, hoping I don’t plummet to my doom. That was the very situation ALKALOID was in before my arrival, which is why I feel just arrogant enough to say such a thing…
Thank you very much, Rui-san. I will remember that should we find ourselves in trouble. Should you need anything, you are welcome to come to me as well.
Actually, Ayase. Did he enjoy those rabbit-shaped candies you got him? I should bring over something to keep your spirits high. Then I could feel useful, and you could have a little distraction.
You weren't alone with ALKALOID, even with your blindfold on, and you aren't alone now. If you plummet, I'll do my best to extend my hand to help you back up. How does that sound? :}
But I really appreciate you talking to me now. Even this much has helped me feel far less afraid of everything. Maybe I can focus on helping those not involved with all of this horrible warfare see a little light in life, or something. Even if people get upset with me for trying to add levity, being mad at me is better than being afraid, don't you think?
Yes, I think he was very touched when I came home with so many treats. We've yet to get through them all. I think, if it wouldn't inconvenience Rui-san too much, I would very much like that. The ramune you picked out for me that day was deliiiiightful~
Yes, and because you are also not alone, I will offer you my hand if it would not disgust you to take it.
Ah ...I'm so glad that I could be of help in this way. I think that's the right idea. After all, that is the entire ideology of idols. We are not soldiers in the warfare sense, but soldiers of hope. We shine so that the people who are in need of that light may look to it and be happy, even in the most tepid and miserable of circumstances.
Its an extremely important service, and if Rui-san were to take up something similar, I think people would be grateful.
A care package will be on its way to you within the next 24 hours, then. ...Once I know Nito-san's address. I promise I will not spread this knowledge at all, and use it only for good.
[SHAKES MAYOI IN HIS FUCKING JAR SOME MORE, SIR, PLEASE.
aka Rui sighs softly at his phone upon reading the word 'disgust', and makes a mental note to be extra good to his Mayoimon in a second. Lots of treats!!]
Nothing about you disgusts me, let alone your hands.
That's a wonderful way to think about it, however. Where I work, with my troupe, we're also soldiers of hope, but also of pure joy and happiness. Escapism in healthy doses. All I want is to be able to create something that brings joy to others. I was worried that it might be in poor taste right now, but...
I've never been good at discerning cues like that anyway, haha! So if you think that it sounds like something worth trying, then that's more than good enough for me. I've already managed to buy a few cheap costumes, until I can save enough money to pay Mizuki for her hard work, so it won't be too hard.
Maybe once I have Nito-san's address, I could perform nearby, and visit you afterwards! That sounds fun.
Ah! Yes, one moment. I'm sorry. [He will just send along that address.]
I look forward to your visit then, we both will fufu~
Yes... I know. I'm sorry. I know you do not like to hear such words from me, I'll try to do better.
Anyway yes, I think so! I think when there is so much uncertainty, small joys are precious. I will support you in any way I can so please tell me if I can help.
[It's a sound file of Mayoi singing. Rui had said he wanted to hear him sing, and since things are so dicey right now, maybe he would appreciate something like this? He hopes so anyway. It feels a little embarrassing to do this without any warning but here goes.]
1/?? mayoi u put him on a fucking emotional rollercoaster what the fuck
[Intense physiological response to Mayoi either sending him a song, or singing in general, noted. Will have to observe future interactions and possible responses. At least no one's here to see how pink he is!!
Okay, time to get back to his phone.]
If Nito-san objects, since it's his apartment too, then just let me know. I don't intend on intruding, but some people like their privacy more than others, after all.
Thank you, Ayase.
[Rui starts typing out something that might show that he's actually listened, some sort of commentary on how he can just imagine the harmonies or how uplifting the lyrics are, but
that doesn't feel right.]
I love it. Your voice is just as wonderful as I remembered...If not more so.
I’m certain he won’t but all the same I will let you know if I am wrong. Thank you again, Rui-san.
I’m glad. I’m sorry it isn’t better quality- I recorded it in one of Nito-san’s closets. It may be some time before I’m able to find a stage to stand on, so I hope in the meantime, something like this may shed a liiiiittle bit of light for you to look towards.
You really are a soldier of hope, aren't you? I'm energised, I feel, and now if I find myself in a similar state of malaise, I can just listen to this song and remember that you thought of me enough to sing it just for me.
Even if no venue is satisfactory here, I can still hear you sing. It might be just a little light for you, but to me, it's blinding in its brilliance.
If I could ever make you feel this way with my performances, I think I'd be very pleased with myself. :}
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[What a fucking day it's been.]
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I'm safe. I haven't left my apartment, to be quite honest.
I saw that you were safe too, otherwise I would have checked in with you much earlier. I'm sorry; I hope that you don't think that I wasn't worried for you, but I didn't want to add to your stress. Is Nito-san alright? Do you two need anything?
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Oh, I'm so glad.
Ah, you must have seen the headcount post. No, please do not worry, the thought never once crossed my mind. There has been a great many terrible things to happen today, and it's put everyone out of sorts...
Nito-san is ...
Nito-san will be fine, I am looking after him. What about you? Can I do anything to help you, Rui-san?
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But really, don't worry about me. I don't really think I'll be leaving for a while, unless I'm needed. There's nothing I can do to be of use, so I may as well stay out of everyone else's road until I'm actually capable.
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[Nazuna hasn't fought him as much as he was prepared for, at least. He's the sort who likes to overwork himself.]
Rui-san...
Do not feel guilty about something like that. I know it's ...something of a great hypocrisy to hear words like that from me, but, no one could have truly anticipated what happened, least of all us, who've only been here for a very short time.
I'm scared out of my mind, but knowing you've decided to stay safe, it brings me a lot of relief. The people here who have seniority over us, let them be the ones to figure this out. Meddling with our lack of knowledge will only bring trouble.
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[It takes him a minute to stop staring at his phone, but at least Mayoi's gotten him to smile, even wryly.]
No, you're quite right. That's exactly what I'd say to someone else, if they were panicking like I am currently. This isn't yet our fight, and we're more of service doing what we can to help out at home base, aren't we? I've just never been in a situation quite like this; choosing to take risks where I know most of the outcomes is quite different to this.
If things become unsafe where you are, you're both welcome to stay with me. I think I'd welcome the company.
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That’s what I think, too. There’s far too much we don’t know yet to be acting recklessly. We were thrust into the middle of something far bigger than us. This may be the cowardly approach but, I’m certain there will be something for us to do once the dust clears and we better understand the ground our feet are on.
Unfortunately, I’m familiar with being pushed to the edge of a cliff blindfolded and being told to walk, hoping I don’t plummet to my doom. That was the very situation ALKALOID was in before my arrival, which is why I feel just arrogant enough to say such a thing…
Thank you very much, Rui-san. I will remember that should we find ourselves in trouble. Should you need anything, you are welcome to come to me as well.
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You weren't alone with ALKALOID, even with your blindfold on, and you aren't alone now. If you plummet, I'll do my best to extend my hand to help you back up. How does that sound? :}
But I really appreciate you talking to me now. Even this much has helped me feel far less afraid of everything. Maybe I can focus on helping those not involved with all of this horrible warfare see a little light in life, or something. Even if people get upset with me for trying to add levity, being mad at me is better than being afraid, don't you think?
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Yes, and because you are also not alone, I will offer you my hand if it would not disgust you to take it.
Ah ...I'm so glad that I could be of help in this way. I think that's the right idea. After all, that is the entire ideology of idols. We are not soldiers in the warfare sense, but soldiers of hope. We shine so that the people who are in need of that light may look to it and be happy, even in the most tepid and miserable of circumstances.
Its an extremely important service, and if Rui-san were to take up something similar, I think people would be grateful.
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[SHAKES MAYOI IN HIS FUCKING JAR SOME MORE, SIR, PLEASE.
aka Rui sighs softly at his phone upon reading the word 'disgust', and makes a mental note to be extra good to his Mayoimon in a second. Lots of treats!!]
Nothing about you disgusts me, let alone your hands.
That's a wonderful way to think about it, however. Where I work, with my troupe, we're also soldiers of hope, but also of pure joy and happiness. Escapism in healthy doses. All I want is to be able to create something that brings joy to others. I was worried that it might be in poor taste right now, but...
I've never been good at discerning cues like that anyway, haha! So if you think that it sounds like something worth trying, then that's more than good enough for me. I've already managed to buy a few cheap costumes, until I can save enough money to pay Mizuki for her hard work, so it won't be too hard.
Maybe once I have Nito-san's address, I could perform nearby, and visit you afterwards! That sounds fun.
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I look forward to your visit then, we both will fufu~
Yes... I know. I'm sorry. I know you do not like to hear such words from me, I'll try to do better.
Anyway yes, I think so! I think when there is so much uncertainty, small joys are precious. I will support you in any way I can so please tell me if I can help.
Ah ... actually. I have something for you ...
翼モラトリアム.mp3
[It's a sound file of Mayoi singing. Rui had said he wanted to hear him sing, and since things are so dicey right now, maybe he would appreciate something like this? He hopes so anyway. It feels a little embarrassing to do this without any warning but here goes.]
1/?? mayoi u put him on a fucking emotional rollercoaster what the fuck
CLICK]
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ok DONE
Okay, time to get back to his phone.]
If Nito-san objects, since it's his apartment too, then just let me know. I don't intend on intruding, but some people like their privacy more than others, after all.
Thank you, Ayase.
[Rui starts typing out something that might show that he's actually listened, some sort of commentary on how he can just imagine the harmonies or how uplifting the lyrics are, but
that doesn't feel right.]
I love it. Your voice is just as wonderful as I remembered...If not more so.
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I’m certain he won’t but all the same I will let you know if I am wrong. Thank you again, Rui-san.
I’m glad. I’m sorry it isn’t better quality- I recorded it in one of Nito-san’s closets. It may be some time before I’m able to find a stage to stand on, so I hope in the meantime, something like this may shed a liiiiittle bit of light for you to look towards.
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Even if no venue is satisfactory here, I can still hear you sing. It might be just a little light for you, but to me, it's blinding in its brilliance.
If I could ever make you feel this way with my performances, I think I'd be very pleased with myself. :}