[Is it? Mayoi finds that hard to believe. He’s got so many flaws anyway it’s hard to compare his shortcomings to others. His ex-master would-]
[Ah… he has to stop thinking about that. It’s tiresome to constantly compare his treatment there to here. He takes a deep breath and settles down some.]
I…I will try to, though not before I …nngh. Exhaust my attempts to follow through.
[Because his pride will make him at least try even if he’d like to be a coward about crowds …errands should be possible.]
What value …? [It’s a question Mayoi finds bewildering. Kindness is so meaningful to him because he’s undeserving and starved for it. So, trying to put that into words stops him cold for a moment.]
…What if you were made to eat vegetables against your will for all your existence despite your dislike …but then one day someone handed you the most delectable sweet you have ever savored. P-Perhaps to most that seems like a drop in the bucket, and you may even have a future to look forward to when you can escape such things …but in that moment that one small bright spot …it would be everything, wouldn’t it…?
[Rui's face lapses into idle thoughtfulness, mulling over Mayoi's hypothetical. It does make infinitely more sense that way, certainly, but his imagery...Pinpointed. Fucking vile. Why the vegetables, Mayoi? Bleh...
But it worked, is the point. So he rolls over onto his belly instead, one arm tucked under his head and the other reaching over to smooth over Nene's back.]
As long as you're content, then. A garden must have the right soil, the right conditions, to bear life, and if this is the correct approach for you right now, then all's the better for it.
But if you want my tack to change, if you would benefit from different treatment, then say so. My role right now is purely to serve as a conduit into the wider world, after all, so I want you to be as full of life and excitement as you can be when you step out alone. It's a fantastic realm we live in, after all, and you'll see so many things that you hadn't dreamed possible. But if you know kindness, you'll be able to accept them a little better.
And then you'll find what, where, and who you love. That'll be a mark of pride for me, I think~
[Ah ...such kind sentiments. They're a little scary in of itself. He's not used to being spoken to so gently, with such sweet intentions, that it does take him a minute to process them. It's overwhelming being given so much so suddenly. Mayoi hardly believes that he's been here for barely a day and already things are so ...different.]
[He's still a little too afraid to trust it entirely, and there will always be a part of himself ready with his foot in the door just in case things turn sour, but at the same time he does feel a grand wave of contentment wash over him, as Rui continues to be the kind master he'd always hoped he might have. That the monster he served before might be the exception rather than the rule.]
[It makes him not regret his choice to crawl out of the dark, and cling here with all his might.]
I ...I have already found myself experiencing such things. It has been ...a very eventful day for me, Master Kamishiro, but in a way that I am not unhappy about. Quite the opposite...
[Ah, he has many chickens with him and he will keep gently petting Emuchicken.]
I-I hope, too, that you may let me show my appreciation by tending to you where I can be of use, even just a little.
Your perspective's going to change soon enough, and you'll be glad to see the back of me, fufufu~ But until then...Enjoy yourself, mm? You've earned a chance to relax after everything you went through, even just last night.
[He opens his mouth to keep on saying shit, but Emu just
fucking attempts to choke herself on Mayoi's sleeve because it looks delicious
and the sounds are fucking wretched. At least she can't actually shovel it down her gullet, and the choking's easily undone by simply pulling her away from the source of all her troubles, but it kind of ruins the mood. Thanks, Emu. At least she's quite happy to sit back on Mayoi's lap once his sleeve's been removed from her beak, bless.]
--Perhaps we should start by putting them back in their pen, for now. As I'm sure you've noticed, while I have traps and protective spells worked into the soil bordering the tower, my airborne security's quite lacking, and I've seen a few hawks about lately anyway. Besides, I'm thoroughly dirty now--
Ah. Did you want to harvest anything first? While we're here and all.
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[Ah… he has to stop thinking about that. It’s tiresome to constantly compare his treatment there to here. He takes a deep breath and settles down some.]
I…I will try to, though not before I …nngh. Exhaust my attempts to follow through.
[Because his pride will make him at least try even if he’d like to be a coward about crowds …errands should be possible.]
What value …? [It’s a question Mayoi finds bewildering. Kindness is so meaningful to him because he’s undeserving and starved for it. So, trying to put that into words stops him cold for a moment.]
…What if you were made to eat vegetables against your will for all your existence despite your dislike …but then one day someone handed you the most delectable sweet you have ever savored. P-Perhaps to most that seems like a drop in the bucket, and you may even have a future to look forward to when you can escape such things …but in that moment that one small bright spot …it would be everything, wouldn’t it…?
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But it worked, is the point. So he rolls over onto his belly instead, one arm tucked under his head and the other reaching over to smooth over Nene's back.]
As long as you're content, then. A garden must have the right soil, the right conditions, to bear life, and if this is the correct approach for you right now, then all's the better for it.
But if you want my tack to change, if you would benefit from different treatment, then say so. My role right now is purely to serve as a conduit into the wider world, after all, so I want you to be as full of life and excitement as you can be when you step out alone. It's a fantastic realm we live in, after all, and you'll see so many things that you hadn't dreamed possible. But if you know kindness, you'll be able to accept them a little better.
And then you'll find what, where, and who you love. That'll be a mark of pride for me, I think~
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[He's still a little too afraid to trust it entirely, and there will always be a part of himself ready with his foot in the door just in case things turn sour, but at the same time he does feel a grand wave of contentment wash over him, as Rui continues to be the kind master he'd always hoped he might have. That the monster he served before might be the exception rather than the rule.]
[It makes him not regret his choice to crawl out of the dark, and cling here with all his might.]
I ...I have already found myself experiencing such things. It has been ...a very eventful day for me, Master Kamishiro, but in a way that I am not unhappy about. Quite the opposite...
[Ah, he has many chickens with him and he will keep gently petting Emuchicken.]
I-I hope, too, that you may let me show my appreciation by tending to you where I can be of use, even just a little.
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[He opens his mouth to keep on saying shit, but Emu just
fucking attempts to choke herself on Mayoi's sleeve because it looks delicious
and the sounds are fucking wretched. At least she can't actually shovel it down her gullet, and the choking's easily undone by simply pulling her away from the source of all her troubles, but it kind of ruins the mood. Thanks, Emu. At least she's quite happy to sit back on Mayoi's lap once his sleeve's been removed from her beak, bless.]
--Perhaps we should start by putting them back in their pen, for now. As I'm sure you've noticed, while I have traps and protective spells worked into the soil bordering the tower, my airborne security's quite lacking, and I've seen a few hawks about lately anyway. Besides, I'm thoroughly dirty now--
Ah. Did you want to harvest anything first? While we're here and all.